i’ve taken to wandering around by myself……. taking the train by myself, walking around downtown by myself, doing things by myself. i guess it gives me time to think. this city seems small to me when i’m constantly surrounded by my friends and all the same people that i know, and it’s like, how can a city so big seem so small? when i’m by myself it isn’t small. and no one rushes me and i can do what i want and actually see my surroundings.
i dunno. the smallness is both a reason to stay and a reason to leave. one’s gonna have to outweigh the other.